Another day down! 277.2

I don't have a lot of time to write... but what I can say is that, since Monday I am down 5.2 pounds!!!! And THAT is something to blog about! :)

That's some kickin' chicken! - 279.6

Mmmmm... I just had a great lunch :) I made some chicken breasts last night and used a spice by "Weber" called - Kickin' Chicken. It's definitely kickin'! It had a great amount of flavor and heat.... sauteed some onions and mushrooms :) delish!

I weighed myself this morning and am down another .6 - hey, I'll take it!!! Yesterday I exercised at the gym on my lunch break and did HIIT on the treadmill. I then took Oakley for a walk around the neighborhood after dinner last night. I am starting out slow and steady as I messed my foot up last time for doing too much-too fast. Today I went to the gym on my lunch break and used the weights for my upper body and walked on the treadmill.

My Biggest Loser Meltdown- so, for some reason totally unknown to me, last night when I went to turn on biggest loser at 8, the channel wasn't working! I was SO UPSET. So upset, in fact, that I cried. haha- pathetic, isn't it? It's just that I like that show soo much and it serves as such an awesome motivation for me! So, what's a girl to do when the tv doesn't work? Go over to Mom's house, of course! I missed the first 30 minutes... but I got to watch an hour and a 1/2 since it was the premier. They had the biggest contestant yet on there- a girl named Shay, weighing 479 lbs. All I kept thinking was, "If she can get in that gym and work out that hard at her size, so can I!!!!". I look forward to watching the series progress and seeing lives change! I have thought about buying the biggest loser workout dvds off of ebay.... not sure how they are. Any one who has used them!?!?!

YEAH BIGGEST LOSER! - 280.2

So, if you haven't gathered already... Biggest Loser Season Premier starts tonight at 8!! I am soo excited that I can hardly wait. :) I LOVE this show... love love love it. It's inspiring, gives great ideas and I'm a reality-show junkie :) On a personal note..... I stepped on the scale and am down 2.2 lbs. from yesterday! Woo Hoo! I realize that it's water weight... but I really don't care. It's 2 lbs. that are gone :) Yesterday I started following the "South Beach Diet" and cut out starches and carbs.... after the 2 weeks are up, I'll start adding back in whole grains and fruits. I really think this plan is wonderful- very healthy. I am trying to just retrain my mindset that it's not a "diet" but a new way of living. I have also started journaling my food- writing down every.single.thing. Last night I even managed to walk for about 45 minutes :) and I've already made it to the gym today! I am determined to be healthy..... My husband and I have already started talking about having children in the next few years, and I really want to be healthy before I embark on such a journey!

September 14: 282.4

September 14- what a date. A lot of emotions come flooding to the top; mainly in the form of sadness. Eight years ago today, my brother was killed in a car accident. It's hard to believe it's been 8 years. Even still, it's harder to believe that he's actually gone. They say time heals all things... I don't agree. I think the pain remains.... time just teaches you how to deal with it.

While September 14 will always be more to me than "just another day", I want this day to not only be remembered for the bad, but also for the good. My brother would have wanted it that way. So, that brings me here...... I've decided to get serious and real about my weight. I've decided to stop pretending like it's not an issue, because it is. I really don't know how I let this happen..... or wait, maybe I do. I ate far too much and moved far too little. It's pretty simple, really. I guess what I don't know is why I've been okay with it until now. All I know is that I'm tired of being defined by my weight. I'm tired of only wanting to shop for shoes and purses- because all big girls know that shoes and purses are a plus size girl's best friend. I'm tired of having to say "maybe next time" when my friends want to go to the pool. I'm annoyed that I can't go horseback riding with my husband in a few weeks because the weight limit is 250. I'm tired of hearing "you have such a pretty face". I want to do this. I need to do this. I HAVE to do this. My health is at stake and it's time that I finally do something about it.

I'm new to this whole world of blogging.... maybe some day some one will read something that I write and feel inspired. Or maybe we'll connect. Or maybe they'll totally disagree and open my eyes to seeing things from a new perspective. In any case, I'm hoping that keeping up with this blog will be a good way for me to just put it out there.... a way to keep myself accountable, if you will. I will take some photos of myself and post them later.... This is my blog. It's a place to be real. To share the good, the bad, and the ugly (and oh, will there be times when it's ugly!)

So here I go...... my journey is just beginning. I'm inviting whoever may be reading this to join along with me....It's going to be one heck of a roller-coaster ride, any takers!?